Peace

I know that I am entitled to no sympathy when I complain that my baby isn't sleeping through the night anymore. Many many new parents have five month olds who haven't slept through the night yet. Never the less, I got used to sleeping and coping with not sleeping now is hard. For what it's worth, I am getting less sleep than I did when Virginia was waking up to eat. Then at least she went back to sleep after I fed her and stayed asleep for a couple of hours. Now she is waking up in pain. I think it's her teeth. Feeding her solves the problem for about twenty minutes.

Last night I was having a particularly rough time and John offered to take her. He went into another room and held and shushed her. I could hear the shushing and at first thought, "I won't be able to sleep." I can be very sensitive to noises, especially when I am agitated. But then I thought about how it was a soothing noise. It was like the shushing wasn't just for Virginia, but also for me. I felt so calm and well cared for. I spend a whole lot of time caring for Virginia, it was amazing to have John take care of me.

After an hour he laid Virginia back in her crib and she started fussing within a matter of minutes. This time I was able to bring her into bed with me and calm her. She still cried out every time she woke up the rest of the night, but I was right there to make her feel better and we both got some sleep.